The 'LIL' story; of school and me



Well, the ‘lil’ in the title is not necessarily stands for ‘little’. Well… whatever /bricked/

Believe it or not, I’m a senior now. I almost cannot believe it. As much as I love being senior and yeah, you know, last year of high school, I am actually a bit sad at the fact that in mere 12 months, I’ll be leaving all this glorious days as a school student. I’ll have to accept my fate of turning into an adult… which scares me to the bone.

But then again, I am not here today to rant about anything. I am here to write about my life as a ‘school student’.

Many years ago, I attended a primary school (as it is called here) in the city of QuanTown (loldafuq) XD!. I am not exactly a ‘city girl’ to be honest. I came from a village, and pretty much my lifestyle is quite ‘village-ish’ (is that kind of thing even exists). I am neither rich nor poor. I remembered myself being one of the cleverest students in the school. I top in every exam and yeah, I just love school. But as years went by, things started to change.

“If you don’t come out as first, you’re a loser.”

“You’re a failure in life if you didn’t top.”

The syllabus change, the education systems change and pretty much, everything had changed including me. Like honestly, I did top in exams, but I feel like… my school life was dedicated only for good grades. When more people put higher and higher hopes on me, it started to scare me. Fears are not good for grades, are they? Haha. I am the youngest in my family. I have two sisters and both of them are the beauty with brains. They’re not only fair and beautiful, but they’re also very clever. I’m not even exaggerating it. I envied them. I wanted to be like them, but I am only me.

Days by days, my fears grew. Tense started to build, surrounding me like nightmares. And one day, I had it enough. I decided to do whatever I wanted; I don’t care about other’s expectations anymore. Teachers started to lose interest in me, but I’m happy rather than sad because nobody pushes me anymore. I stopped impressing anyone. But then, I started being underrated. I am also confused with life. When I top, people praise me but push me over the edge. But when I bottomed, they mock me as stupid. I’m not exactly stupid to be honest. Nobody is. I believe everyone is a genius, but in different forte. I remember one time; I witnessed two kids being compared by their own mom at supermarket. I think they’re twins. The mother keep on praising the taller one with lighter skin, but keep on scolding and mocking the younger one, who had darker skin. They were just kids, they have their own pace, they own liking, their own interest, why put the burden of fulfilling your wish on their delicate shoulders?

The competitions started to go crazier. When I was in standard 6, I wanted to on stage and claim my success again after so many years of keeping quiet. So I work hard and yeah, I got straight A’s. My teachers were all surprised. How skeptical of them, really. It’s funny how people love to look down at someone when they actually know nothing about them.

I then got myself a place in an elite school in the city. It was too far from my house, so I have to stay in hostel. Hostel life was hard. I endured it for 1 year, and on the next year, I exchanged school. In Form 2, I attended a secondary school which was also quite far from my house, but a lot nearer than my previous school. Until now, a lot of things happen. And yeah… without noticing the change, I am now in the last year of high school. Wow… I feel old for so many reasons. (But considering there’s still megazilion people out there who are older than me… :P) JK! /slapped/



I guess that’s all. See ya in the next post~! Kbye! ^____^;;;